STOP IT

You are love and I am not. I adore You for this. I praise You for your complete and utter ability to love and be fully love. I am sadly no where close, yet I know You want me to share this attribute in You. I feel like I get it some days and then am slammed with the realization that my love that I think is selfless is actually dipped in selfish ambition and vain conceit. It is horrifying really. I long for the day that I am able to truly, selflessly, love like You do. I know I never will to the extent of who You are but knowing that I must work toward this in a highly physically pressing world is something I need to get past and beyond moment by moment. I tell my mind, STOP IT, be loving. STOP IT, be humble. STOP IT, be kind. STOP IT, be patient. But then the tears well up again and some sort of unloving thought comes into my mind. Anger, Envy, Selfishness, Entitlement, Disappointment, a whole host of feelings contrary to LOVE. You are love. You are perfect in love in every way. Help me to be more like You today. Give me grace and mercy to honor your desire for me to be more and more like You. Forgive me for always asking for forgiveness over the same things. Forgive me again and help me to grow closer and sanctified in this area over and over and over and over again until I am home with You!

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One thought on “STOP IT

  1. Thank you so much for sharing your heart I so agree and He so understands how hard it is to live in this world. The Holy Spirit will help us and it is a process all the days we live until we see Him face to face……He understands and His Love is unchanging and unfailing and unconditional just as your love for your son. Love you Jen

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